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albany.
mario sevayega (cafe web). the staziaks (valentines).
the twenty-eighth. august nine nine.

mario sevayega collage - 19K
'capture it'

damn.

mario's killing it. the band's killing it. the zone. restrained power. all about the potential for power - not the power itself. and thusly, more power.

damn.

normally, watching someone kick it this well would give me butterflies. make me nervous about my own thing. but i've been playing well. things are going well. things are good.

so i video. capture it. even capture the young lady jimmy kicks out for being rude at the counter. a moment. does anyone else even notice? of course not. it's about the zone.


later: valentine's. velvet underground tribute. would have killed to be on the bill. all the songs i want to do are taken. especially the song i've been covering for years now.

the day before: a phone message hints that the act doing my song may not show up. room for me after all?

so i salivate.

but i get to the club. and that other act is there. so i slink to the corner. so i video. capture it.

the staziaks, too, are in the zone. sound problems from earlier in the evening magically correct. women never really faint. villains always blink their eyes.

white light. indeed. crowd frenzy.

staziaks collage - 19K

later, motherjudge says while biting her lip: life is meant to be more than this and this is a bum trip.

hard to watch. cellophane. naked.

for a moment i want to video. capture it. there's another tape in the bag, right?

but it's so raw. so personal. so perfect. so i leave it alone.

in the end: i don't play. but that's okay.

tomorrow is another night, right?

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